Emotions, moments and philosophers
I experience life as the moment passes. I think, I make beliefs, and I work on projects I want to work on. In daily life, I see flowers blooming and plants dancing in cold rains. I do not need to solve anything other than this sight of nature in this moment. A lot of times, we feel emotional; most of it comes from the past, where guilt over wrong decisions is hidden, and longing for someone to share our happiness, and sometimes our hearts want an intentional longing for sadness, which the mind cannot fathom much.
Dostoveysky described it beautifully. He said emotions come from the deepest core; the mind cannot understand them. He said some emotions are dark and have a demon quality which can destroy the world, and some emotions are so strong and pure that a person chooses to intentionally choose fire to light himself up. He agreed with the idea of mind and heart division, where He said some humans are emotional fools and some are logical but emotionally dumb.
Going back to Camus, this propels us to change something, and that change becomes failure, and Sisyphus has to start again. In routine and real life, it feels like we do the same, but part of it does not apply at times. In emotional moments and in some moments of failure, some humans can give up momentarily and start again after a major loss, but it takes a heavy toll on the mind and heart, and the person who starts again would not be the same person who failed in the first place. Maybe another Sisyphus is there, getting ready to fail again.